this book.

is epic awesomeness.

i kid you not.

Hello hello baby you called but i can’t hear a thing

 

you know i <3 you right. friends forever :)

Dang what is wrong with me. I do not like being noticed. I do not like being in the spotlight. I do not like people’s eyes on me. Im so afraid that I will not live up to people’s expectations once they begin to notice and expect things from me. I’d rather work backstage, be the silent helper that no one sees and acknowledges, but still an important part in the play all the same, than be the shining star that takes the front stage. Im much more comfortable like that. Dont know why, but that’s just the way i roll. :)

Mixed feelings lately. Typical Bella-Edward-Jacob story (okay veryvery bad comparism i know but i dont know what else to compare to!) First, there’s E, whom B cant' forget about even though he left her. Then J comes along and he helps B by just being her best friend, and B loves him for that. But then E returns, and B dumps J for E. Although she loves E, she still loves J, cuz J stiched her up when she was broken, and stiches like that are bound to leave a mark.

Sigh that’s exactly what i’m feeling now. I cried cuz of this that night. I told mom about everything, and i felt so much better after that. This is gonna be the first and the last time, i promise. :)