I love you more than i can STAND

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so i sat down. :P

teehee. :)

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In a world full of wrong, you're the thing that's right

5 days. So much has happened within these 5 days. Why do these type of things always happen to us? It's like every week life throws something at us, something to tear us apart. Well, all I'm sayin is that nothing's gonna bring us down. ;)

Well, 5 days of my holidays have passed, and in a flash, may I add. It seems like yesterday was Saturday, and i was thinking "ah, finally. I can take a break", and now, poof, it's wednesday night. Already. Time flies. I havent touched my homework at all, and there's CO tomorrow, friday and saturday. Going fruit floating with Faith and wengkin after CO tomorrow. Mwahahaha. It's been so long since i last hung with them. Kinda looking forward to it. :)

Accounts folio is driving me crazy, and it's just the documents. I havent started my stock-checking and the journals yet. ohmygod.

LYCHEE CHONG LI XIN!

I miss you soooo much! I'm already counting down the days till i get to see you! 16 more days till i can text you, 18 more days till i can see you! I can't wait! I've got so much to tell you. I miss your laugh, i miss your lameness, i miss your counselling, i miss your presence beside me in class. I miss ponteng-ing with you, i miss recess with you i miss every single thing about you! Times passes so SLOWLEEEE-EEEEE-EEEEEEE without you. :P

okay. i think that's it for today. Gonna go do homework now. Ciao. :)

Unproductiveness

Sooooo.. the first day of holidays. guess what i did today.

1am- reached home after a super long and exhausting day in Penang.
8.30am- woke up
8.35am- fell asleep again
10.30am-woke up again. Lay on the bed staring at the ceiling. Modem was on. Checked my facebook
10.45am- fell asleep yet again
11.30am- woke up again, and went down to get some food (finally)
12.05pm- went back upstairs and lazed around with my guitar. you texted me. finally. i was missing you so much.
1.00pm- youtube-ed
2.30pm- fell alseep AGAIN watching youtube
3.40pm- woke up. you were online. talked to you. Im so glad everything's finally alright between us.:)
5.00pm- bathed and lazed around. called dominos for dinner.

i am so awesome that i amaze myself sometimes. Lol.

Falling slowly

Last week, has been one helluva messed-up week. Lots of pent-up anger, tears and cursing. Lots of bad-mouthing other people (yes i know), lots of shouting and lots of venting. Hopelessness, dejection and frustration. Misunderstandings and over-sensitivity. Bitterness and near-break-ups.

Yes, a lot has happened.

But every cloud has a silver lining.
Among all this harshness, there was also sweetness: the feeling you get when you accomplish something, the feeling when all your friends stick up for you, the moment you realize that you are not alone. The power of teamwork. And also the feeling you get after making-up from a fight with a loved one, that sense of assurance and comfort, knowing that they will always be there for you. :)

I've had quite a week.

And to you,
I'm sorry for last week. I really really am. I'm sorry for not being understanding enough, sorry for not being able to tolerate anything. I have grown so much after that incident. You taught me valuable lessons, and though I've cried cuz of these lessons, they were all worth my tears. I'm okay now, and in fact, I'm stronger than ever before, and it's all because of you. I believe that we can overcome whatever obstacles that life may throw in our way. Thank you. I love you, and i hope what we have will last. :)

Sometimes you just feel like giving up and letting go

Thats exactly how i feel now.

You make me wana eat my hat and light my pants on fire

Oh okay. that was random. But i really am FUMING. Like seriously. I havent been so stressed out and frustrated about something since.. FOREVER.

HELLO. This thing we're planning here, it's all for you guys, and you guys dont even know how to appreciate what we're doing for you? Please dont act like we have to dedicate our 24 hours a day towards this thing. We're just doing it out of courtesy, and if you really dont like the way we're planning to do it, then go ahead and plan it yourselves.

这是我们的一番心意，你们喜欢就接受，不喜欢就算了。我们还有更重要的事情做。现在我们应该以学业为重，而不是你们。我们肯抽空出来搞这些东西已经算是很好了。如果你们那么不懂得珍惜，那么喜欢批评我们，为难、刁难我们，还为了锁琐碎碎的事情闹脾气, 我想，大家已经是没有心要继续挨下去，搞好这件事了。:/

And.. ishh... i feel like such a failure right now. I can't do anything right. I can't lead, I can't make up my mind on anything. I couldnt stand the pressure and I broke down at school today. Luckily i had my bunch of very awesome friends with me. Xinlin. Liting. YiSyuen and Pengjane. Thanks for today. Thanks for cheering me up. Thanks for your support. I promise you guys I'll do my best not to let you guys down. (p/s i dont give a shit about what they think of me anymore. I'll do things my own way. =])

oh, and lesson learnt today: If you want things done, dont count on other people. SO TRUE.

Bidding adieu to July

Farewell, July. A month to be remembered. So much has happened in this past month, so much that i dont even know where to start.

*opens facebook homepage*

whats on your mind?

YOU.

What a silly question, as if there's even a need to ask.

You're on my mind, you're in my heart. It doesnt matter where we are, even if we're miles apart. All i wana do is be with you. There's nothin' we can't do, just wana be with you, only you. ;)

I've missed you so much this week. Thanks for today. Thanks for everything. iloveyou. :3

He gazed at her with enough love in his eyes to flood a small village

Haha ignore the title. It was just some random sentence from my English homework. :D

Another week has gone. Half a month more till August tests and i still have 3 shitty long chapters of history to finish. GROUPSTUDY!! chonglixin. happyshum. chinxinlin. leeshintien. kjwenfljh. ANYONE??? sigh i'm gonna be SO screwed. :/ *drops head onto table in dejection*

School life has been fun lately. :DDD I kinda enjoy slipping out of the back door of the classroom when im bored. (the teacher doesnt even notice! epiccc fail man ). Then lychee and I will happily walk round the school untill we meet some law-abiding classmate coming back from the toilet or wherever, who will then shoo us back to class. :P

OH and my bubu is back from LONDON! i darn friggin hate you cuz you get to see hot guys, bub! imsogladyougotsunburn! *evil laughters* >:)

And now, my main reason for posting..YOU, of course.

:B

You have have no idea how scared I am of what I'm feeling. This is a first for me. I've never felt this way before. Ever. You said that trust is the most important thing. But trust is not something that I easily dish out to everyone i know. Trust is hard to come by, trust has to be proven, trust has to be earned. But you, you are a total different case. I'm willing to take this leap of faith, and trust you. (seehowluckyyouare?) :P :P ILOVEYOU.

HARRY POTTER ON SUNDAY. TWO MORE DAYS TO GO! :DD

christinawong. carmenlew. looyijia. tanyisyuen. I IS VERY BEH SHOCK YOU GUYS CUZ YOU GUYS ARE WATCHING IT EARLIER THAN ME!!! D:

Randomly saw this pic on TUMBLR:

Gawd it's like CARB HEAVEN. Potatoes on rice on sausages on bread. CAN YOU IMAGINE THE CALORIES. omg.

but it still looks yummy though. XD

Oh great. my stomach is already yowling.

note to self, NEVER browse tumblr at night while hungry. :P

right it's late and i have school tomorrow.

So thats it for the night, peeps.

ciao :)

Between now and forever

Sports day and Penang chun lei '11 :')

Just a weee update before cobwebs and flies dominate my blog. :P
I havent really had the inspiration to blog lately. Oh whatevs. I dont like the way i blog anyway. :/ I like the way Yijia blogs. Yeahhhhhhh. Check out her blog HERE.
:)

Time flies huh. Another month has passed since my last post. So much has happened, so much has changed, and i have a feeling that nothing will ever be the same...

Firstly, YOU.
We're from different worlds, never supposed to meet. I'm so glad Fate interfered and brought us together. You taught me the meaning of true friendship, and changed me in ways you could never imagine. Thankyou for sticking with me through thick and thin, through all the hardships I've faced in this past month. Even though our time together hasnt been long, i feel as if I've known you forever. You remind me of myself, in a way. As you say, we run on the same frequency. Please dont keep saying that I made the wrong decision. I know i didnt.
iloveyoulots,andyouknowit. ;)

Hmmm. What else? Oh. PARENT'S DAY. Haha it was kinda fun, in a way. Sat and talked in front of the hall with lychee and la yeng. THEY ARE SO LAME HAHAHAHA. :DDD Somehow, i really enjoy watching them squabbling and trying to annoy the lights out of each other. I'm realllyyyy bad. I know. ;D My results for mid-year were... *covers face with hands* Even i was shocked at how terrible it was. :S I really have to start studying for August. ARGHHHHHH. Physics and Add Maths! Imma conquer you! >:)

HP7.2 ON SUNDAY WITH DARLING SHINTIEN! I feel so excited for it, yet kind of sad.. After 10 years, it's the end of a legend, a story that will not be forgotton, carried on by the millions whom it has touched.. It's gonna feel kinda weird not looking forward to the next HP film. HP was such a big part of my childhood. Thankyou JK Rowling, for Harry, for the magic, and for making us all believe. I just can't accept the fact that this is really the very end.. Having a funny feeling now that I'll cry while watching the last film. :')

TODAY'S A HOLIDAY!
but i procrastinated doing all my work, so i have to finish it up now..
ciao, people.
HELLO ADDMATHS AND ENGLISH.
:)

MKT "11

谢谢文桥，让我通过这一次的领袖营，学会了这么多课本上学习不到的东西，让我认识到这么多人。谢谢你们让我在这个领袖营有了一次又一次的自我突破。信心组，我们是最棒的！:)

MKT camp this year was unbelievably awesome. Our group was awesome. I shall forever remember the two performances we did together. Christina's "JB-slash-brunomars musical drama", and our literally out-of-this-world drama. JB musical drama was seriously fun, and i really really enjoyed playing for them. (my first guitar performance woohoo! although it was damn crappy haha). annnd needless to mention, the drama. Oooooooh i really admire our group! We used less than half an hour to produce a 5 minute drama titled 真爱，需要等待. and we only rehearsed once! XD that's the power of teamwork. :)

This year's camp held so many breakthroughs for me. For once during a camp, i came out of my shell. I mean, not that i'm anti-social. I just find it hard to open up to people sometimes, especially people who i already have an idea about who they are. So yeahhh. This was the first time i shared my innermost thought to complete strangers. And surprisingly, it felt good. Thanks to everyone who listened. Christina, Annie, YingHui, RuoHeng and so many more. And especially my group leader, XiuJun. Ilove you guys so much!

Christina you're a great leader. You're so serious about everything, every single detail. and everything is equally important to you. And most importantly, you dont overlook anyone. You make everyone feel equally important, even the most minor people and characters, and i feel that is crucial in being a leader. :)

arhhhh i dont know what to blog anymore! IN CONCLUSION , THIS CAMP WAS AWESOME.

okay bye.

how lame, i know

:P

It's 12am, I'm hungry and my leg is full of darned mosquito bites

Mua legs are ITCHING. like SERIOUSLY. i swear i shall NEVER sit anywhere near the chairs behind the hall anymore. you can feel them, ( and i mean literally FEEL) then flying around your legs. I CANT STOP SCRATCHING MY LEGS! gahhhhh.

So anyway. Performance for teacher's day is coming along great. Viva la vida rocks, and as faith says, it's less than 24 hours old! We're so awesome. :P Skipped class for two days with lycheh, and we have tons of homework waiting for us to do now. hehehehe.

okay so there's this guy. lets call him X. and he's like friggin annoying. -.- so i told my friend, which is also his friend. and my friend asked him to eff off. and now i cant believe that X is lecturing me on thinking before i speak? like WHATTHEHELL seriously. WHAT I SAY TO MY FRIEND IS NONE OF YOUR FARKING BUSINESS. HELLO?!! EVER HEARD OF FREEDOM OF SPEECH? I CAN SAY WHATEVERI LIKE TO HIM. ARE YOU SERIOUSLY TRYING TO CONTROL WHAT I SAY TO MY FRIEND? AND WHAT HE DOES TO YOU AFTER TALKING TO ME AINT ANY OF MY BUSINESS EITHER. THAT'S BETWEEN YOU AND HIM. ughhhhh. mothafarkers.

Oh, and you. you jerk. i cant believe i stood up for you. i cant believe that i cried for you. now i know. you're a jerk, and nothing but a jerk. good riddance to you. Out of sight, out of mind.

ooooooh im HUNGRAYYYYY. :(

this book.

is epic awesomeness.

i kid you not.

Hello hello baby you called but i can’t hear a thing

 

you know i <3 you right. friends forever :)

Dang what is wrong with me. I do not like being noticed. I do not like being in the spotlight. I do not like people’s eyes on me. Im so afraid that I will not live up to people’s expectations once they begin to notice and expect things from me. I’d rather work backstage, be the silent helper that no one sees and acknowledges, but still an important part in the play all the same, than be the shining star that takes the front stage. Im much more comfortable like that. Dont know why, but that’s just the way i roll. :)

Mixed feelings lately. Typical Bella-Edward-Jacob story (okay veryvery bad comparism i know but i dont know what else to compare to!) First, there’s E, whom B cant' forget about even though he left her. Then J comes along and he helps B by just being her best friend, and B loves him for that. But then E returns, and B dumps J for E. Although she loves E, she still loves J, cuz J stiched her up when she was broken, and stiches like that are bound to leave a mark.

Sigh that’s exactly what i’m feeling now. I cried cuz of this that night. I told mom about everything, and i felt so much better after that. This is gonna be the first and the last time, i promise. :)