Heaven doesn't feel far away anymore, cause you are my heaven

"Keep giving me hope for a better day
Keep giving love to find a way
Through this messy life I made for myself
Heaven knows I need a little
Hope for a better day"

Been feeling weary dreary and down in the dumps due to the changes in the edexcel syllabus these days. I don't know why I still feel it's an immense waste to have gone for January intake (now that we are going for CIE anyways)  while I could have enjoyed 3 months of post-spm life with my friends, stayed at home with all types of comfort, led a healthy lifestyle with all the time in the world to workout in the gym, and most of all, get my driving license. But then again, that's life. With life, you can never get the upper hand. It's always filled with unexpected twists and turns, and whenever you think you've got it all in control, you turn a corner, and suddenly boom, a huge bomb drops out of nowhere and leaves you stumped, at loss for words. 

Yes, the edexcel system is pretty screwed up; and yes, I think the British are pretty damned selfish for changing it just like that for the benefits of their people. I guess there's only one solution, that is to stand strong and take it all in stride with good grace.

Went for a movie marathon today with Shintien! Oh gosh it's been so so long since I've been this crazy! Two movies in a row, spontaneously. It's was like 'eh, this one look nice, lets watch this'. Reminds me of how much I miss my high school friends, how I can be lame, random, spontaneous and totally myself without being judged when I'm around them.. When I hang out with (some) of my peeps in kl and their friends, I have to watch myself. Don't say this, don't say that, or you'll get judged, scolded and dissed in front of people. ESPECIALLY, when there are people of the opposite sex around. Keeping quiet ann d only saying things that you think are smart just to impress them? Puh-lease I DONT THINK SO. I detest people like that.  I really dont enjoy zipping my mouth or holding back things when I'm around people. I like letting loose, giving it all I've got, even if it seems crazy, stupid, idiotic and foolish, because that's what friends are for! I believe in enjoying myself and having fun with them, even if it means looking like total fools and idiots to the rest of the world. I seriously don't give a shit. ;)