Because each day's a gift and not a given right.

HOLLA PEEPS! So sorry but I've been MIA due to the humongous workload, countless exams, and immense stress that they call college life. Sometimes I just wish that I could take a break from it all, just to chill, lay back and relax, but then again, I guess I'm kinda stuck with this life for another year, so I might as well learn to handle it. Honestly speaking, I guess I've more than settled down here to the life in KL. It might not be my ideal lifestyle and environment, but it's a start, better than nothing. Ideally I would've gone straight to Australia, but since I've made the decision to come to KL, I'd better make the best out of it.

And speaking of KL, WHAT'S THE BIG DEAL ABOUT KL?! Does staying in KL make you more superior to people from other states? Do you really have the NEED to diss people's hometowns/?? Just because you're from KL? How would YOU feel if I started talking bad about your hometown? Just because I dont show my annoyance in front of you doesn't mean I don't take offence, seriously. Everyone's tolerance has a limit, and to tell the truth, mine is stretching to a breaking point. Yes, I admit that Ipoh does not have as much entertainment as KL, but well, that's only entertainment. Imo, the quality of life in kl sucks ttm. The air sucks, the water is dirty as god-knows-what, there's zero greenery around...i could go on forever. And how is it wrong that I don't know how to get around because I'm from Ipoh? There's nothing to be ashamed of. You're friggin from KL, and you need a GPS to get around, so who should be the one laughing now?? -.-

*inhales deeply* 

So it's the raya holidays now, and I'm supposed to be having my well-deserved break. SUPPOSED. Cousin from my mum's side is here to stay, and I really don't know how to describe how I feel. Staying with a mentally-challenged 30-year-old and her parents definitely was NOT part of my holiday plans. So far, it's been nothing but annoying. Yes, there WAS maybe a drop of pity when I thought about it and put myself into her shoes, but after she proved to be a spoiled, self-centered brat who is the pickiest person in the world, enjoys picking arguments and staring at you while you sleep, I was just plain annoyed and pissed off at her. I don't care if she's mentally handicapped, or in other words, retarded. A freaking 30 year old who's as good-for-nothing as a 10-year-old.

Ok my sister just dumped my cat into my lap, and now my face itches. =.=
till next time :)

Heaven doesn't feel far away anymore, cause you are my heaven

"Keep giving me hope for a better day
Keep giving love to find a way
Through this messy life I made for myself
Heaven knows I need a little
Hope for a better day"

Been feeling weary dreary and down in the dumps due to the changes in the edexcel syllabus these days. I don't know why I still feel it's an immense waste to have gone for January intake (now that we are going for CIE anyways)  while I could have enjoyed 3 months of post-spm life with my friends, stayed at home with all types of comfort, led a healthy lifestyle with all the time in the world to workout in the gym, and most of all, get my driving license. But then again, that's life. With life, you can never get the upper hand. It's always filled with unexpected twists and turns, and whenever you think you've got it all in control, you turn a corner, and suddenly boom, a huge bomb drops out of nowhere and leaves you stumped, at loss for words. 

Yes, the edexcel system is pretty screwed up; and yes, I think the British are pretty damned selfish for changing it just like that for the benefits of their people. I guess there's only one solution, that is to stand strong and take it all in stride with good grace.

Went for a movie marathon today with Shintien! Oh gosh it's been so so long since I've been this crazy! Two movies in a row, spontaneously. It's was like 'eh, this one look nice, lets watch this'. Reminds me of how much I miss my high school friends, how I can be lame, random, spontaneous and totally myself without being judged when I'm around them.. When I hang out with (some) of my peeps in kl and their friends, I have to watch myself. Don't say this, don't say that, or you'll get judged, scolded and dissed in front of people. ESPECIALLY, when there are people of the opposite sex around. Keeping quiet ann d only saying things that you think are smart just to impress them? Puh-lease I DONT THINK SO. I detest people like that.  I really dont enjoy zipping my mouth or holding back things when I'm around people. I like letting loose, giving it all I've got, even if it seems crazy, stupid, idiotic and foolish, because that's what friends are for! I believe in enjoying myself and having fun with them, even if it means looking like total fools and idiots to the rest of the world. I seriously don't give a shit. ;)

Of misplaced trust and old friends and never couting regrets

Wants to blog badly, clicks on 'new post', forgets what to blog about, closes tab.
Thats exactly what I've been doing for the past few days. I have SO SO much to blog about. Thoughts, feelings, opinions, anger, hatred, happiness, contentment; all jumbled up inside, fighting for release, but most of the time I just give up cuz I dont know where to start. Ugh consequences of being lazy to blog heh heh heh.

Sometimes I wonder how other people see me. I would give anything to be in my friend's shoes for a day, to see what type of person I am to others, to hang out with myself, to see if I really am what I imagine myself to be. But then again, I'd be scared. Scared of what people think of me, scared of what type of person they really see me as. What if I'm not what I think I am? What if I'm far from it? What if, what if..?
Going through a self-doubt phase these days. Seeing myself as a failure. Antisocial, uninteresting, boring, ugly, overweight, untalented, immature, useless, stupid, desperate, and the list goes on and on and on...
And it's all because of this one person.This one person whom I regarded as one of my closest friends not so long ago. And this one person who changed so much, that i can hardly recognize her anymore. Gaining popularity at my expense, scolding and dissing me and making me look bad in front of friends, bossing me around like I can't make decisions on my own. Trying wayyyy to hard to be popular, in my opinion. Far from what I'd expect from her.  I guess it's true when they say "when you have a good heart, you trust too much and too easily. You give too much. You love to much, and it always seems like you get hurt the most"

Sometimes I think I should just stand up for myself, instead of going along with everything. I guess that to some people, backing down in an argument seems weak, an act of cowardice, but for me, backing down and apologizing does not necessarily mean that you're weak. It means that you treasure this friendship, and you'd rather back down, tolerate, and be marked as wrong instead of ruining this friendship. But now I really dont think this friendship is worth anything anymore. It obviously doesn't mean anything to her, so why must I be the only one trying to salvage it? Most of the time it's better to let go than to hang on to something that just isn't meant to be :)

Been playing a lot with Faith lately. I guess during times like these, music is my remedy. And the fact that we're playing duets just makes it all the more better. The perfect harmony and flawless melody soothes me, despite the fact that our playing is far from perfect. There's something magical about duets, the way the notes blend perfectly together, the fact that one part would sound bland and boring without the other. Played untill our fingers were swollen purple, and our chests hurt, but in a good way. It's been so long since we've experienced pain like this, and it only made us miss our music journey for the past five years all the more. Missing chamber orchestra, AMCCO, PPO, performance/ cover of Viva la Vida during events, and all our other musical ventures, competitions and performances. :/ Music has been a huge, immense part of my life for the past 17 years. I've been playing music for as long as I can remember, and I miss it, so so so much. D:

Results for semester exams were better than I expected, quite satisfied with em :D Particularly happy that I got such high marks for literature though. Never really expected a 75 and above for it :D but still, there's much room for improvement. Got As for both C1 and C2 maths, which was kind of expected, but nevertheless, never expected such high As for both :o Chemistry was mehhhhh considering i did all the questions before. And BIO. urghhh so not satisfied for bio! It's my most confident subject, and I got lowest for it out of all my 4 subjects. Must work so much harder for it! :/


Going back for AMCCO concert this saturday! Missing my juniors much and looking forward to it!
Time to sleep peeps!
Ciao ;)

Maybe I'm just dreaming out loud

Right so there's a bio test tomorrow, and I've just wasted the whole weeked doing chemistry and maths. Seriously. Our maths lecturer has transformed us into robots, albeit lazy ones :P Most of us just procrastinate and drag our homework cuz it's REALLY. TOO. MUCH. I hate to think what the double maths students go through. C1 in 3 days, C2 in a week and here i am still struggling with C2. Too much la really. D:

Anyway, this weekend was..DEPRESSING. Things got off to a bad start when i realized i smartly left ALL my textbooks in my locker at school and had to run all the way to school and get them since school was closing in half an hour. -.- Got a lift back from Wilson who happened to be in the area. Then....hardcore NAPPING for 3 hours cuz i was so freaking exhausted from ob.

Orientation ball the night before was one of a kind. Everyone looked so amazing, and there seemed to be something magical in the air that night. I guess all the preparation (or rather just us being girly girls and having girly fun) beforehand was worth it :) Living in a house with 7 girls, with a few more friends from the other apartment units, the preparation part was definitely the best fun for me :P Beds were transformed into workstations, littered with makeup; curling irons and hair straighteners everywhere; every single mirror in the house was put to good use, and not to mention the screaming and panicking when we realized that we were going to be late. Haha talk about good bonding time ;P Ob was awesome, i swear. Credits to the SC who organized the event ;)
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Have you ever been hurt, learnt to trust, only to be hurt all over again? Time passes, people change, and things will never remain the same for long. I was so innocent, so naive to actually believe that things would stay this way, that everything would actually turn out alright, that things would be all flowers and rainbows and unicorns from now onwards. I was so wrong. At the end of the day, people remain selfish. It's human instinct, to put themselves first, to do things that are beneficial to themselves,and only themselves. It's our way of surviving. College is pretty much like that, and it sucks ttm :/ It's during times like these that i really miss high school. I miss the innocence, I miss the carefree-ness, I miss the people. :(

ok it's now 2am. Time for sleep.
Nights, peeps :)

On a random note...

Ok so i officially miss this crazy woman like hell. I miss the times where we could talk and see each other every single day, have heart to heart talks over every single thing, share family secrets with each other and so much more. I miss having her as a listener, i miss having her as a sister, i miss having her by my side. We have been through so much together, from primary school untill now. Out of so many friends, she's the one I trust the most, she's the only one who really cares, she's the only one whom i feel comfortable with pouring out all my secrets. Every little thing i see or i do reminds me of her. We were so fearless, so insane. I really really reallyy miss her more than i can say.

:')

Courage is when you've lost you way, you keep on going any way

So HELLO HELLO again, peeps! So I'm blogging again. Quite rare for me to blog two days in a row eh? Anyway i just got home from school, cured my starvation with yj's delicious pork chops mwuahaha. It's no wonder i gained so much weight after coming to college with the amount of good food i eat everyday. My face is so freaking round now D: but who cares ;D

Nyways, brought my baby back to kl with me this timeee! So hyped about him haha. Everytime i play, it reminds me how much i miss music, and how much i miss those CO/symphony/chamber orchestra days. Aih what to do? life's like that. We wont regret anything untill after it's gone. Music is like a second nature to me, thought I'm not really thaaat good, i still feel at home with it. Maybe it's all the training from CO and chamber. I absolutely CANNOT listen to classical music when i want to study. I'll start analyzing the scores, and listening to what every instrument is playing and trying to figure out the scores. I'll go absolutely crazy if i try to study with classical music on ;p

Anyway, All Clubs Day today. I joined the Music Club, and also  the Nature club cuz it seemed cool, with all the hiking and volunteering at Zoo Negara and all, but then after i signed up, some senior told me that we just bring our homework to do there.. :/ So.. whatever. Walked home with yj's classmates. So i really really like her classmates. They're such a fun bunch :) MATHS HOMEWORK IS EVIL. AGAIN. I suspect our teacher forgot that most of us are taking 3 other subjects as well as his. It's like we all go home and do maths untill midnight and not study anything else. I mean, how is it humanely possible to finish so much work in a day. We aren't robots for goodness's sake. Not that i dont like my maths lecturer. He's freaking cool and all, but his workload... ughhh... D:

Ok so enough ranting bout homework. I'll just go and DO it.
ciao peeps :)

College college college

Holla peeps! Time to revive my blog, which has been dead for about a month or so now, (duringggggg this time I have been doing a great deal, which I shall elaborate on later), so just bear with me;)

Firstly, COLLEGE! What else? :D college has been awesome awesome awesome so far. Amazing people, amazing housemates, amazing friends, what more can I want?:) Funnily enough, I'm not homesick, not even the teensiest tiniest bit. I dreaded the thought of living away from my parents, I thought I would cry for days when I first came here, but bang, none of that, at all. On the contrary, this place is becoming like home to me. Living together has been great so far. Cooking together, eating together, laughing at nonsensical things together, basically doing everything together, with my friends, both the old and the new, is making me love this place more and more. Don't get me wrong though, I love my family, I love my parents, and I miss them (they call like twice a week -.-) , but this place, it's already home to me:') I never dreamed that I would find such good friends here, and that we could live together so peacefully. I really am thankful for them:')

Soo, enough of living away from home, moving on to college itself. First things first: THE HOMEWORK LOAD IS CRAZY. IT'S EVIL. IT'S MURDEROUS. IT'S TOURTURING, (and basically any bad word you can think of) especially the Maths. Other than that, the college itself is fine. The lecturers are good and I like how it's smaller than the other colleges out there. We get to bump into each other more often, and mix around better. It's like a huge mckl family:) the people here are super friendly and nice, and I couldn't have wished for a better school:)

Ahhhhh I have soo much to blog abt, but there's school tomorrow!:/ so I guess I'll just continue my rants tmr! Ciao ;)

Ze awesome classmates! Feel the Iove heh ;)

Dedicated to you

Alright, so the world didn't end in 2012 (as expected) despite the whole doomsday hooh-ha, and now it's time to blog about my year. Well honestly, 2012 passed by in such a flash that I didn't really get to enjoy my last year in high school as much as I wanted to. All I remember about this whole year was that i was busy, REALLY BUSY, and I feel as if the calendar should be showing March/April right now, instead of Dec 31st.

I cant agree more that time really flies. Tomorrow I'll be moving down to kl for a fresh new start in college. Though I'm excited, all packed, and ready to go, I can't deny that I'll miss my family hell lots. I'll miss having family breakfasts/dinners, random family outings when dad is in a good mood. I'll miss my cat sleeping on my lap,accompanying me when i study late into the night, I'll miss the good food my mum always makes. I'll even miss my brother's rambling nonsense whenever he decides to go all philosophical on me. I'll miss everything :'(

And of course, I'll miss you.
Who knew that, when fate brought us together 18 months ago, that you'd be so important to me?  All the memories we've made, all the good times that we've shared: the late-night phone calls, countless outings and movies, making tangyuan at my house, the paper SMSes, the encouraging letters, etc etc, I'll keep in my heart forever. Thank you for always being there for me, my rock to lean on. You're the one that keeps me going whenever I feel like giving up. Whenever I'm feeling down, you're there to offer me comfort. Thank you for believing in me when the whole world turned it's back on me. Thank you for giving me the courage to dream, and for showing me that dreams really do come true when you work for them. Thanks for all the love and support all this time. You are such a wonderful, amazing person, dont let people tell you otherwise. Getting to know you, and becoming your friend is a privelege and an experience I will never forget. Although we'll now be going our separate ways, I'll never, ever forget all the times I've had with you. Remember that wherever you go, or wherever I'll be, I'll always be there for you. I'll be anything that you need me to be. You'll be in my heart forever. Thankyou. I love you.

:)
Gonna continue counting down to the new year now! Bye peeps!
Have a happy new year and a wonderful 2013!!

Ciao
:D

It's all the little things

HEYLO FROM SINGAPORE PEEPS! Just a quick one here.

So I'm in Singapore now. Dad drove down from kl yesterday cuz my bro has some squash tournament there. Staying at my uncle's apartment on Alexandra Road with my horrible, horrible, least favourite cousin EVER, who throws random fits and tantrums whenever we do anything that crosses her line. (I really hope she doesn't see this lollol). Anyway, when we were passing through Johor yesterday, we passed the Johor Premium Outlet, the where one princess Katherine hosted the opening cerominy (well,I think she did XD) you know, the ones with lots of posh, high street brands you don't find in most shopping centers in Ipoh. So dad said why not go have a look. Turns out to be the biggest mistake ever.

The first shop we went into was Armani. The sign on the door claimed that there was a 90% sale, so we thought, why not? But the prices there......3000 for tank top? I mean come on, a primary school teacher's monthly paycheque just for that little slip of cloth? And the quality aint that great either. i dont think so:/ I've seriously never been able to understand why people pay so much for so-called "branded stuff". Does it make you somehow richer or more respected in the society? Does it make you feel better? Ok well maybe it does to some people, but most people wouldn't know that you're wearing a 3000 dollar dress anyway. Most wont even care, as long as you look respectable and presentable. No offense to those who enjoy branded stuff though. I just think that we can do so much more constructive things with the money, say donate it to the homeless or stg, instead of putting it straight into the pocket of the franchise owner who probably has a billion bucks anyway. It's not that I don't buy expensive clothes. It's just that I believe in paying for my money's worth:)

So after that we went to visit my mums sister at her shop in ulu tiram, JB. Sat and read like nobody's business in the middle of the shop cuz the last Percy Jackson book was so epic. Hahaha. I'm kind sad the series has come to an end, though. Never thought I'd enjoy the series this much when I started then 2 years ago. XD

Reached Singapore at 10 last night and crashed into bed. Slept till 7 this morning and was woken up by my awesome cousin who dragged us to go swimming. D: gah. Anywy I beat my sis at swimming today! Which IS a big deal, cuz she goes for hardcore training (DBI at 5am everyday) and I don't. Well, I USED to, 7 years ago, but whatever. Point is, I BEAT HER. Yayyyyy! ;D

Queensway for shopping, which is right next to my uncle's apartment. Mum went crazy at the sight of all the sportswear =_= had to wait for her like aunsxjiwljahdqlmzns long cuz she was so hyper lollol. Bought a black lace dress at a random boutique there. By the time we it out, it was drizzling, so we decided to get home quick. But halfway, it turned ino a full-blown storm without warning wtf. Got drenched to the bone, sneezing like anything. But it was fun :D it's been so long since I last ran in the rain:) subway for lunch, and we returned to the apartment to sleep and laze around. Wheeeee.

Which is now. Hehehe. Gonna prepare for dinner. Ciao peeps! ;D

First post-spm week!

So as you all know, ess-peeee-em ended this Monday. Wait. It was THIS Monday? O.o Dayum, it feels so long ago already! Time really flies. College in less than 3 weeks yo! Super hyped up, as i said in my last post. but at the same time i kinda want more holidays. Contradicting much? D: Anywayyyyys. Gonna blog about my first post-spm week, or as guava calls it, 'this week's EPIC ADVENTURES'. HAHAHAH. ;D

 Sooo. On MONDAY, Guava and Gideon fetched me from school after the Chinese paper. Have to admit, guava's driving is not bad! Wheeeeee. Guava if you're reading this dont be too self-loving kayyy! :P:P:P Went to RPGC to bathe. Poor Gideon had to use the public washroom cuz he wasnt a member. Sorry yo! D: Watched Life of Pi, which wasn't as bad as everyone says. Not many people know how to appreciate it and i think that's why i kinda like that movie ;DD Sushi King for lunch before the movie, and ended up missing half an hour of the movie cuz the service at Sushi King is terrible shit. I'll never understand WHY guava is still an avid sushi king fan. =.= Planned to go for BR after the movie but we changed our minds and went to The Coffee Bean instead for hot vanilla. The reason? Cuz our hands were freezing after the 2 and half hour movie and none of us wanted to risk frost bite by having ice cream again. HAHAHAHA. Took ugleh photos at coffee bean. HAHAHA.

Normal one xD

Ugleh photo #1! Forced Gideon to do ugleh faces wheeeeeee! 

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LOL at this! The three of us look epic here LOLLL! ;D

Anyway Guava left his phone in Sushi King (which he didnt realize till AFTER THE MOVIE, ==). We didnt know where he left it so we went to the cinema and barged into the theater like a boss with torchlights while the movie was showing (accompanied by the workers, of course;P) to search for his phone, only to fail immensely. So we went back to his car cuz guava was thinking MAYBE he left it in his car, WHICH HE DIDNT. =.= THEN we went back to Sushi King. Thank God it was there. My legs were breaking already D:  Guava fetched me home, and promptly got lost on the way back. HAHAHAHA .

Went to kay-ell on TUESDAY with the family to do my brother's Visa for next year! Went to the Australian high comm then went to One U to shop. Got office/formal wear for college next year! I shall skip the rest of the day cuz it was god-damned boring :|

THURSDAY was well, EPIC. :D Played badminton with Dominic and mommeh at ISC in the afternoon. Asshole was so good that I felt so damn paiseh playing with him after that, especially i saw him play with mommeh. Wth. Ah Pek if you're reading this (and i know you WILL), MOMMEH KEEPS ASKING ME JIO YOU PLAY WITH HER. ZZZZZ whats you people's problem yo. =.= Saw guava, faith and lime when we were leaving. Apparently, they went just to bump into me, which really made Dom LOL. Went for Rise of the Guardians after that. It was awesome! The characters were so cute and adorable and the story was quite touching. It really made me believe :) Sushi Zento after the movie, which was quite pricey. D: Thanks for belanja-ing yo! ;D 

Super ugly pic of me and my driver of the day! :D

So we sat and talked in Sushi Zento for quite some time, totally oblivious to the fact that people were waiting outside and throwing us spiteful glances HAHAHAHA. Whatever, it's not like we're gonna see them again anyway :P Finally got bored of the place and left. Then we had no idea where to go =.=  so we just parked somewhere and sat there brainstorming where to go next HAHAHAHA. In the end, we decided on.......GIANT. HAHAHHAA. Damn random i know, but that's the fun of it! ;D Walked around for quite some time, and even strolled in the supermarket LOLLL. Absolutely the first time i went into a supermarket with a friend. SO RANDOM! ;D Then even more randomly, we decided to go for boh eight tea. Shared a drink there and chatted some more and he sent me home cuz mah parents were out. Wheeeeee. Definitely the most random day of my life hahahha. 

Then photoshoot on FRIDAY wheeeeee! Thanks to my super talented friend Khai Jeng whom i bugged for a photoshoot XD We actually planned for me to go for the wild and sexy and rebellious look. you know, with construction sites, red brick walls and yellow police tapes as backgrounds, but failed immensely cuz it was raining crazy everywhere and we couldnt go anyplace outdoors. So we ended up doing this post-rain photoshoot at RPGC. Not my first choice as a photoshoot site, but cuz khaijeng is so awesome (i swear she makes anything work), it actually turned out quite okay. :))))))) Just ignore my terrible horrible make-up and huge eyebags, and focus on the angle and lightings :D

So. SATURDAY. LASER BATTLE YO! (alright this post is getting reallyyyy long, but whatever xD) Went with guava, gideon, jinxian, jinwei, winsoon and clement! Wheeeeee. This is really sad, but I SUCK AT LASER BATTLE. BIG TIME. D: Got my ass kicked by everyone, even lycheh D:  Gideon and Jinxian kept on shooting me. Especially Gideon! He'll hold you so you cant move and shoot you a few more times to get points. Boooo you, Gideon D: Went for, yep, Sushi King YET AGAIN after laser battle, suggestion courtesy of guava. What's the big deal about sushi king, guava?! =.= 

Which brings me to today, SUNDAY. Spent most of the day at home reading Percy Jackon :D I actually bought the whole series for rm25! That's rm5 per book! Such a bargain i couldnt help buying them all hahaha. But the condition of the book.....you know i know lah. Doesnt really matter to me cuz i'll only be reading them once XD 

Went for gym with Dominic this afternoon. My personal trainer hohoho. He put me through a friggin workout which he claims is 'just a warmup'. Wth. I dont dare imagine his 'workout' will be like D: My arms feel like jelly now gah and i hate to imagine what i'll be feeling tmr :( Anyway, as he says, 'no pain no gain' :D imma presevere till my 'wings' on my triceps are gone. HAHAHA. Wanted to go for jacuzzi also but the genius didnt have a swimsuit. Gah spoilsport D: Anyway thanks k dominic! Waiting for the next session xD 

Which brings me..here. Right now. Typing this post. I guess this post is the longest one yet for this year. HAHAHA. My arms are killing me right now, so i'll just stop here. Till next time, peeps! 

Ciao :D

Breathe in, breathe out, and ignore the butterflies

Hey guys! I know this post is wayyy overdue, but I've just been so busy! Busy with my post-spm activities, of course! I love the feeling of being totally free of any responsibilities, being able to do anything i want without feeling guilty, and most of all, being able to laze at home with a good book without a worry in the world :DD It's been so long since I last read a novel (mum refuses to buy books for me cuz she worries that i'll abandon my studies. wth.) so i went on a book spree straight after exams. Used almost rm150 on books in two days! And that just the books in Ipoh! Going to the Big Bad Wolf Sale in The Mines next week wheeeeee! I guess I'll have enough books to last me for the rest of the new year after I'm done with that sale :P

Anyway, back to business. SPM was... okay, i guess? Just keeping my fingers crossed for 9As (no hope for Chinese as usual hahaha) To tell the truth, I'm not that worried about my results anymore, even much less when March comes around. By that time, I'll be burying my head in books and studying my ass off (I hope) and i wont be bothered by that little slip of paper anymore. That chapter of my life has ended and has been sealed off, for good. So pumped up for college now! Can't wait to meet new people and start my life afresh at my new school, MCKL. For those of you who dont know, MCKL is this small but cozy college in Brickfields which produces students with kick-ass results :P

thats the best picture i can find. XD 

And and, guess what? I PASSED BOTH MY GRADE 8 CELLO AND PIANO THIS YEAR! Wheeeeee yay me! Only got a pass for cello cuz the examiner was freaking strict, but I'm satisfied! Best thing is, I got honors for piano! Different exam board with a much more lenient examiner of course, but still, WHEEEEEEE!;D Reason I'm so effing happy is cuz my piano exam was smack bang right in the middle of SPM. It was like, piano exam on Saturday, then bio and chemistry papers on Monday and Tuesday. I was like, WTF when i first knew the date, but now i'd say i wouldnt pick another date to take the exam. It really motivated me to work hard for both the papers in advance cuz THERE'S SO MUCH TO STUDY @.@ And i started practicing hard like 2 months before the exam. Hahahahahha. YAY! ;D

Okay, it's late and i should go sleep now. Will blog about my epic hangouts tomorrow cuz guava wanted me to blog about them. Hoho.

Goodnight peeps! ;)

Technically, I'm backstabbing myself by being your friend.

Selective seeing is awesome. It never fails to amaze me how people can choose to see something that they want to see, or just simply close an eye towards those that they do not.

You really won't have any idea what you've put me through these past few years. Everything you do, you have another motive behind it, and often, it's a selfish one, one that only benefits yourself. Time and time again, youve made this point clear. Last time, i was innocent enough to trust you, even after everything you've done. Well, this time I chose to grow up. I chose not to be pushed round by you anymore. I chose to live my life the way I like it. I chose to be myself. If your definition of friendship is doing everything the same way you do, following you everywhere, thinking alike you, getting the same results as you, mixing with your group of friends, then I'm sorry. I'd rather forfeit this friendship.

Do you really think that all good things don't come with a price? Are you really that naive? Yes, I worked really hard to achieve a just-average result, but I'm not ashamed of it. Just assume that I'm stupid, and I need to work extra-hard to get the results I want. At least i tried. At least i made an effort. It's better than not trying at all, totally giving up, and just sitting around and making empty wishes about getting good results. It shows that you don't give a shit about anything, that you don't even care. Saying
I've changed won't make me change the way things are now. It only highlights the contrast between our current personalities. Call me stuck up if you like, but I think I've changed for the better. Frankly, im kind of relieved that things are the way they are now, and i wouldn't do a thing to change it.

Reality sucks.

Hey guys. Blogging from my phone again. Just wanted to write, hahaha cuz I dont really have anything to blog about.. Well, actually i do.

Cello exam's this Friday. THANK GOD I got a professional pianist. I really owe her since she's been teaching me how to interpret my pieces, and helping with all the dynamics and stuff (except for my Bach suite, of course) , something my cello teacher NEVER teaches, and I've improved so much since last week. I am so blessed I found her:) and oddly enough, I'm feeling good about this exam. No idea what score I'll get though, and no hopes for a distinction whatsoever. I guess I'll just see how everything goes on that day:) keep your fingers crossed for me! Xxx

Reality check: trials are almost two months away. Seems like a long time, but it'll pass in the blink of an eye. My exam results this time showed improvement, but that's no reason for me to slack down. All the more to show that I'm actually on the right track. I guess I'll work my ass off for trials, with mum nagging behind..sigh. Good luck to me :/

Well its 11. Off to bed! Heh goodnight, peeps!